So this is called a blog site where I write down things that I am doing and show some pictures of where I am at. This will be different the rest that I have written. That is why it is called "Blob." It will just be thoughts that I have had throughout the day and weeks before. You might not understanding anything because it will be so mixed up, but here we go anyway.
So today I have been in my apartment most of the day because I have been sick all day. I think that I have a little cold because of the sudden change in weather. A week ago it was in the 70's and we had the most beautiful blue skies. Yesterday and today have been pretty cold, more like in the 40's and 50's, and rainy. I don't know if any of you get sick from weather changes, I haven't before, but I guess that I do now. Anyways, I have had lots of time to think and read and yes play some video games.
This morning I listened to a sermon, on podcast, from the Bridgeway church in Rocklin, on Judges 17 and 18. The pastor was talking about how we try to manipulate God in order to get the things that we want. Sometimes they are good things and sometimes not so good, nevertheless, we try to make deals with God and try to offer in him something in return for something that we want. As if we have anything that he doesn't already have. He made a point saying " Do we really want a God that we can hold onto. If we have a God that we can wrap our arms around, then he is not big enough to cover us." I thought that was a great thought. Do I really want a God that I can know everything about? Do I want a God so simple that I can create something, such as an idle, that is exactly what he is? Or do I want a God that I can only imagine a fraction of what he really is? I confess that sometimes life would be easier if I knew every part of God completely because then there would be no mistery to have to trust in. Our God, then one that we serve, is bigger then and idle or anything that we can create. That is why life can be so exciting and so nreve racking because we don't have all the answers, but he does and we have to trust in that.
Another point that the pastor made was "How much Christianity can we take out of Christianity and it still be Christianity? Jesus said that his yoke is easy and his burden is lite. Why are we so tired then when following God?" I don't think that it is always easy to live the Christian life, but how much of the diffiuclty of our walk with God is because of our inability to live it out fully and not because it was meant to be so difficult? Why do I struggle in my walk with God more at times then others? At times it seems effortless and at other times it seems like it is the most difficult thing to do. I bet it is because in the times it is difficult for me to follow I am missing something key to my success in walking with the Lord and the thing that I am missing isn't something that I can't visibly see, but it is something that holds the walk together. I know this is very vague, but think about the tangible things that Jesus did in his walk with his father.
I was encouraged by this message and hopefully you are as well. Some other things that I have been thinking about is the minsitry that I am doing here. I am excited for the ministries in Milovice. I am excited to teach English through a Reading club that we are starting. I am excited for the Karate club that we are starting. I am excited about the Basketball club with the adult men we are starting. My hope and prayer is that these ministries will be places where people experience something different then they do in the rest of their daily activities. I hope that I can be a part in something that helps the Czechs in Milovice to see that there is more to this life then the physical things that they see. I hope that the random thoughts they might have about there something being out there that they can't see but they fell it, is validated and they feel safe to explore it in these ministries. I hope that the other Czech Christians in the Milovice community are encouraged and step up to the plate in sharing their lives with these people. I desire for these ministries to be a place where people can find hope and feel like they are part of something bigger then just themselves and just their community.
And finally, I have had many thoughts about my faith. I have been thinking about how much of what I believe about God is just my American culture and how much is actually from scripture. Scripture transcends culture and the truths that are in it are for all people all over. I would love to have ideas about life and the life that God has called all people to that Czechs might not have thought of before. But how much of these ideas are just mine and not God's. It is hard at times here because I am still a student of the culture and trying to figure out how God wants to work here. Don't get me wrong, I am having a wonderful time learning here about the culture, but it still feels like my hands are tied because I just don't know yet. I don't want to take to much leadership because I don't want to be the typical American that has all the answers, but I don't want to let opportunites pass by that I could have done something or said something. I guess this is the big balancing act and faith act for all missionaries, knowing when to step forward and knowing when to step back and let the people of the culture act in the cultures time. My goal here is not to make other Christians that look just like me and the place that I come from, but it is to see people grow in Christ in the culture and circumstance that they are in. God is good and he is in control. So trust in that, as long as I am walking with him I can't go wrong. So I just need to pray more then I ever have before to see where to take my next step. It is awesome to serve a God that is bigger then me and that walks with me. It is awesome to be led by his Spirit. It awesome to serve a God with so much grace that even when I stray and take false steps his work can and will still be done.
Much love to all of you. Thank you for your support in this adventure that God is taking me on. You are a brave person for reading this through and I hope that you are encouraged by it. Our God is good and he deserves our whole heart. God Bless